YOU DON'T KNOW UNTIL YOU GET THERE...

I have learned that there often is a big difference between what we say we want, and what we actually may want. And, it's often not that we are not clear. Or not sure. Or, on the surface not honest. It's simply that we just don't know how we will feel about almost anything until we get (t)here. About a person, a situation, a dream, a notion. To a certain degree, it's at the foundation of be careful for what you wish for. "I am ready for a committed relationship with someone I adore." "THAT would be the perfect job for me." "I want to live in the country." Whatever is the stated ideal, we can have beliefs and hopes and expectations about what we (say we) want, yet my realization and truth is that we just don't know until we arrive in the moment. When the future idea turns in to the present "reality" (thank you Eckhart Tolle in A New Earth for helping me to deepen my "getting" that the future only happens in the moment). When we get to actually see what is, not what "isn't" or imagined. When we are presented with what, or whom, we have been asking for...imagining...hoping for...the sometimes jarring (to ourselves) response is often, "no thank you." Or "not ready" Or "MAYBE not." Our pre-existing clarity can implode with insane speed. And, that's OK. Because as long as we are being honest in an inthemoment kind of way, particularly with ourselves first, and then with others who may be involved, we are dealing with the reality of being here now. In our feelings, in our emotions, in our truths. Keeping it here and not somewhere out there gives us the ongoing opportunity to actually peel back our own layers and get to what is is that we REALLY do want. Which we can only know when it arrives, and our eyes are open. Here and now.